Coping with the state of the union or lack of is a daily daunting
task. I go through my day with emotional
swings that match tweets I read about the state of the union feeling helpless. I
resurrected my blog writing weekly political op-eds to at least get a voice. Since Trump was elected, I’ve done things to
make a difference. I went to the Women’s
March in D.C. the day after the inauguration, I’ve organized post card parties sending
messages to political officials, made hundreds of calls to politicians. I’ve gotten on every progressive email list
around, joined a Huddle that followed both the Women’s March and Invisible
recommendations for actions. All of
these gave me hope at least for a moment but none has given me lasting hope that
could possible outlast Trump’s era. I need some reprieve.
In the beginning of Trump’s presidency, I woke and turned on
Morning Joe to get a blow by blow update.
When I shared this with friends there were doing the same thing. We were watching blow by blow our democracy deteriorates. This motivated me and some of my friends and
occasionally still does today. Let’s face
it there is an issue almost every day to write your legislature about. Lately I’ve been broadening my news sources
turning to Democracy Now, Reuters, and New York Times.
I attended the Women’s March in D.C. coming home with so
much hope that was shattered within days. The women who stayed at the house where
I got housing came to D.C. from all over the East coast. Most had never been to a march, written their
legislature, or did any kind of political work for progressive change. What I got out these women’s stories was that
they felt strongly about doing something because they couldn’t take the newly
elected misogynous Trump and wanted to stand up to him to say no more.
Some of my friends talked about moving to Canada or some
other democratic friendly country during Trump’s campaign. I shunned this idea and wanted to take up the
fight, something I’ve done during the second wave of women’s liberation and the
gay rights movement. Going to Thailand
to study Human Rights last year accomplished both getting out of the current
state of the union and getting a purpose.
I got a deeper understanding about Human Rights not only in the United
States but in world. When asked why I
was there I had a one-word answer, Trump.
Today my hope for turning around the state of the union comes
from news of the Mueller investigation.
At the same time, I explore this little deeper and think your courts are
the real governing body of the state of the union. I was full of hope when Nancy Pelosi wouldn’t let Trump give his “State of the Union”
address before congress while the government was shut down. It took a woman to stand up to Trump and for
the moment he seems to be listening. I
measure progress in moments, in tweets, in sound bits. Now that Nancy Pelosi is allowing Trump to
give his “State of the Union” address I don’t think I can listen to him. I never can, instead I listen to the commentator’s
summary afterwards, read op-eds from liberal press to get the jest.
As I write this, I realize I’m burned out on Trump because I’m
trying everything to fight him. I need a
break. I’m making plans to walk the
Camino de Santiago for some reprieve. I’m
walking for some peace of mind. It’s in personal
contact with people talking to people with compassion that I find my most
hopeful moments. How do get reprieve from
the current state of the union. Do just
check out of the news, take action, hope it all goes away soon. We all ask ourselves when will this be
over. I have no answers, and when you
get to the point of no answers it’s a sign of burn out and time to step back to
take stock of in this case the state of the union.